Lan Ruobing leaned against Xi Xue’s chest, her mind a whirlwind of thoughts.
Being somewhat reclusive, she often meticulously observed the lives of those around her.
Thus, she had long since realized that while Xi Xue was gentle with everyone else, she never truly opened up to them.
Only with Lan Nuo had Xi Xue bared her heart.
On the rooftop, the two of them would share their deepest secrets and confide in each other.
Despite this profound connection, she and Xi Xue were merely very good friends.
Nothing more intimate than that.
Lan Ruobing could clearly sense that Xi Xue held no romantic interest in her; it was as if she were oblivious to such feelings.
They were close friends, capable of confiding anything, yet utterly devoid of romantic spark.
‘In her eyes, I’m probably no different from the plants and trees,’ she thought.
This was her conclusion.
After all, who could develop romantic feelings for plants and trees?
It had been fine when she was a boy; at least she had the ‘tools for the job.’
But now, with both of them being girls, there was no way to ‘deeply communicate.’
How could love even blossom?
Xi Xue couldn’t possibly be a lesbian, could she?
But even if she were, and Xi Xue could accept it, Lan Ruobing couldn’t.
She had only heard of such things but had no experience.
Could two women truly feel pleasure that way?
Having once been a boy, she knew intimately how formidable a ‘great treasure’ could be in front of a girl.
How could delicate fingers ever compare to such power?
Even though she had been a virgin as a boy and never had experience with a girl, the robust and lasting endurance she’d imagined in her fantasies was probably close to reality.
Could a girl truly withstand that?
However, hands were different.
So slender and tender, relying solely on arm strength, without the power of the torso and waist.
How long could they last?
Could they satisfy the other person?
If they ignited the flame, could they extinguish it?
Moreover, when the boys around her used to tell dirty jokes, they would always mock each other with phrases like, ‘Yours is so small,’ ‘You only last three seconds,’ or ‘You’re useless.’
Clearly, the ‘three soul-searching questions’ were something a lesbian relationship couldn’t resolve.
Love without physical intimacy couldn’t last.
Sooner or later, one person would grow restless and contemplate infidelity, turning love into a mere memory.
Throughout history, how many heroes had fallen victim to the ‘husband-lying-beside-the-wife’ rule of infidelity?
A woman couldn’t be truly captivated without a healthy, robust ‘great treasure.’
So, even if Xi Xue were a lesbian, what could she do to Lan Ruobing?
At most, she could only make her feel a little something.
Therefore, whether Xi Xue was a lesbian or not didn’t matter.
The crucial point was the change in Lan Ruobing’s own gender, which prevented her from developing that kind of sexual interest in Xi Xue.
As a boy, she would yearn for spring and dream of love.
Now, as a girl, but with a boy’s inner self, she had no interest in boys and couldn’t love girls in that way.
Alas.
Such was one of life’s great sorrows.
If only she could have, before the transformation, with Xi Xue…
Alas.
She sighed deeply within her heart.
Ultimately, they were not meant to be together.
Now, she simply wanted to live her own life; she had no interest in romantic relationships.
But regardless, Xi Xue held a very important place in her heart.
Xi Xue had saved her twice.
The first time, Xi Xue made her realize that not everyone cared about her past.
She had once believed that people viewed everything through colored glasses, holding deep-seated prejudices.
She thought that knowing her parents were ‘murderers’ would instinctively make people distance themselves, but Xi Xue was different.
On the other occasion, Xi Xue showed her that there were still people in the world who cared for her, who remembered her.
Xi Xue’s nostalgic expression when she looked at the rooftop, and how she spoke to the unfamiliar Lan Ruobing about her past as a boy, were the best proofs.
Most importantly, she had, after all, once secretly admired Xi Xue.
Such feelings, once they took root, could not be eradicated.
Even as a girl, compared to strangers, Xi Xue would always be special.
She was the most likely person to become her true confidante.
Therefore, she had to cherish her; a true confidante was, after all, a rare find.
Moreover, Xi Xue was also a wealthy young lady!
If she could successfully ‘conquer’ her into becoming a close friend, what more could she want?
This was a veritable gold mine!
Her eyes sparkled.
For some reason, her mood, which had been rather melancholic, suddenly brightened.
The accumulated negative emotions vanished without a trace.
‘That’s right,’ she thought.
‘It wasn’t easy for a boy to get close to Xi Xue, but I’m a girl! I have a natural advantage. And Xi Xue was the one who approached me first, which means she’s interested in me. If she’s interested, then it’s bound to succeed!’
‘A gold mine delivered right to my doorstep!’
With this thought, her mood instantly improved even further.
Her body happily shifted, unconsciously rubbing against Xi Xue’s chest, making Xi Xue feel a pleasant tingle.
‘Excellent. I became a girl, and I can even snag a wealthy young lady for free.’
She was practically laughing out loud in her heart.
Xi Xue felt a stirring in her heart.
This Ruobing was truly tormenting her.
Just moments ago, she had been lost in thought while caressing her waist and back, her whole body flushed with heat, already feeling somewhat uncomfortable.
Now, Ruobing had rubbed her chest a few times…
She swallowed hard, unconsciously rubbing her legs together.
Below, things were getting a little out of control…
Perhaps, she truly was a lesbian?
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