Chapter 0: Prologue. Sentence

“At most, a year.”

“……I see.”

“……I’m sorry.”

I’m sorry.

I couldn’t even remember when the last time I heard those words was.

What I felt was the doctor’s pity.

It didn’t feel bad.

No, it would be more accurate to say that it felt strange.

The pity and guilt that I had never felt before, no matter how hard I tried, were coming from a doctor I had just seen for the first time today.

The word “term of death” itself wasn’t shocking to me.

There was no way I could have dreamed of living a long and healthy life.

It was just, strange.

It was just strange.

Ah.

Effort really isn’t important.

That was all that suddenly happened to me.

“Wait, could you wait a moment?”

As I sat up blankly, mulling over the thoughts that came to mind, the doctor who had been bowing his head until just a moment ago stopped me.

“What?”

“I, I’ll find a way somehow. There’s definitely a way for you to survive.”

“…”

“So don’t give up on life, and just wait a little bit.”

“Giving up on life.Me?”

“Yes?”

The doctor made a stupid sound as if he hadn’t expected such a question.

No.

What am I supposed to do if I say something strange and then do something like that?

Give up on life.

Why would I go through all that trouble?

“If you were saying that because you were worried that I might be shocked by the terminal diagnosis and commit suicide….You don’t have to worry.”

“… But.”

“Suicide? Why would I do something so useless?”

“… If I really had such thoughts, I wouldn’t have come to see you.”

If I really wanted to die, I wouldn’t have come here.

Why would I commit suicide when I could live comfortably with the rest of my life left?

“So don’t worry. I will never commit suicide.”

If I still can’t believe it, should I bet money on it?

I seriously thought about how I could make my words believable, but fortunately, the doctor in front of me nodded as if he believed me.

“… I will believe you.”

“I will live more comfortably than anyone else, so you can trust me.”

After giving my trust to the doctor who was staring at me until the end, I slowly left the sullen examination room.

Hmm.

This is really the end….

I really have to live comfortably.