Chapter 11: If you kick my heart away, it will just be useless trash

“Ugh… We don’t take TS disease patients…”

Rejected.

“Sorry, we don’t accept TS disease patients…”

Rejected again.

‘Thank you for taking the time to interview.

You have been rejected.’

Rejected again and again.

Since Si Eun left, I’d spent the last few days going to various companies and part-time jobs for interviews.

But all that came back was rejection.

Every company, every part-time job, rejected me because of TS disease.

Discrimination-free company, my a*s.

Discrimination-free place, my a*s.

‘….F*ck.’

-Thwack!-

I kicked a trash can that hadn’t done anything wrong.

The trash can fell over, and trash spilled out.

Just like my own heart.

If you kicked my own heart, all that would come out would be useless trash, too.

“Ha… How am I supposed to live now…”

I’d confidently told Si Eun that I could live well on my own, but right now, I felt so lost.

Now, I even felt like I should never have said that… But having said it, I couldn’t go back on my word.

That’s what a man does!

“Th-this f*cking…”

In a way that didn’t fit with the words “that’s what a man does,” I got my a*s kicked.

I just got beat up for no reason by a bunch of people.

Some thugs I didn’t recognize saw me and said, “You’re Yi Yun Ha, right?” and when they realized it was me, they beat me like they were trying to kill me.

Blood sprayed from my mouth, and my body was bruised and scraped.

“Today… my luck’s bad.”

It was too bad, like someone was making my luck bad.

It was like someone was ordering for my luck to be too bad today.

I trudged home.

When I got home, it usually just looked like a normal house, but today, it looked as pathetic as I felt.

-Thump-

I came inside and went into my room, collapsing onto the bed.

As I flopped onto the bed, tears burst out, as if all my pent-up emotions had been unleashed.

I didn’t want to cry like this… I didn’t want to cry, but my emotions had exploded.

“F*cking hell… Why does this only happen to me…!”

The pillow got wetter and wetter.

I just aired out all my complaints alone in the empty room.

For hours.

Crying my eyes out.

-Click-

I took out some alcohol from the refrigerator.

I didn’t usually drink, but today, I really wanted to.

‘Ugh… The smell of alcohol…’

I hated the smell of alcohol, but for some reason, I wanted to drink today.

-Pour-

I poured the alcohol and drank it.

There was no snack.

I just kept repeating that.

“Ugh… F*ck… Waaah… Why does this only happen to me…!”

I was drunk out of my mind.

Like when Si Eun injected me with that aphrodisiac, my mind was hazy, and it was difficult to think straight.

“…It’s really hard.”

Tears fell.

I wanted to stop crying, but the tears kept coming.

Then, I had a thought.

My savior.

Si Eun.

As soon as I had that thought, I called Si Eun.

-Ring-

Before the ringing tone even sounded once, Si Eun answered the phone.

[Hello?

Yun Ha, are you having a hard time?]

“Yeah… It’s too hard… Please… come over…..”

I said, crying out loud.

[Yun Ha, have you been drinking?

And why are you crying again?]

“I failed all my interviews… and I got beat up by people, too…”

[….Okay, I’ll be right there.]

Si Eun’s tone was quite excited, as if she knew it would happen.

But what would I know in my drunken state?

I just waited for Si Eun, shedding tears.