Until You Wake Up and Remember Me

After pushing the handkerchief deeper into his pocket, I spoke with my hand still resting on his thigh.

“If you tell me you can do anything at all, I’ll tell you.”

“If it means I can wake up, I’ll do anything.”

He answered in a steady, composed voice.

Death or s*x.

I hesitated over which one to say, then, hearing his neat, unwavering tone, finally made my decision.

Hyeon Jaeyul, if you were someone who took care of your own body, I would’ve told you to die.

You should be grateful for what I’m about to say.

Not that you’ll ever realize it’s a lie, so you won’t even know to be thankful.

I curled my fingers, dragging them lightly as I withdrew my hand from his pocket, scratching along his thigh as my lips curved upward.

“s*x.”

“…Why would we do something like that?”

“Just answer whether you’ll do it or not. If you do it with me, I guarantee we can get out of here.”

Unlike before, I pushed Hyeon Jaeyul’s body back against a massive tree whose bark, now half-cleared of soot, revealed a deep chestnut brown.

My hand slid past his waist and came to rest on his solid chest.

Every time my fingers brushed the collar over his overheated skin, his body jolted in response.

Unable to hide my amusement at his innocent reactions, I asked,

“Can you do it? Hyeon Jaeyul, it’s your first time, right?”

His eyes widened as if asking how I could possibly know.

With a reaction like that, it’d be stranger if it weren’t his first time.

Thinking I was teasing him, he bit his lip hard and nodded.

“You said you’d do anything.”

“Good. Then let’s do it.”

“…Can you really do it? We just met.”

He spoke in a voice lacking confidence.

Staring straight into his black eyes, slowly clouded with desire, I smiled gently.

I hadn’t forgotten the role I’d brought with me from reality.

“Idiot. I told you we know each other. I know you. You’re the only one who doesn’t remember.”

When I scolded him lightly, the rationality in Hyeon Jaeyul’s eyes finally began to waver.

He looked at me as if apologizing for not remembering.

Just like before, he started to smile again.

“Let’s do it until we wake up. Then you might remember me.”

Smiling faintly, I wrapped my arms around his burning neck.

I felt light filtering down through the trees brush against my face.

Warm light, and Hyeon Jaeyul’s scorching body.

Looking at his dazed expression as he stared at me, I realized I had already taken root somewhere in his heart.

[Affection for target character ‘Hyeon Jaeyul’ has increased significantly!]

[[TIP! It is recommended to maintain affection at an appropriate level.
Excessively high affection in the early stages may cause issues with scenario progression.]]

…If this is an R-rated romance simulation, why is it being so dramatic?

Ignoring the red warning window telling me to regulate affection, I focused on Hyeon Jaeyul in front of me.

Following my words, he murmured in a low voice,

“Yeah. Let’s do it until we wake up. So I can remember you.”

‘You really trust people too easily, Hyeon Jaeyul.’

When he answered in that pleasant voice, I smiled brightly, genuinely pleased.

Unexpectedly, he leaned in first and pressed his lips against mine, making me flinch slightly for the first time since taking control.

Despite how boldly he kissed me, his heart was pounding like it was about to explode.

I laughed softly into his mouth as our lips stayed together.

Hyeon Jaeyul’s body carried a warm, gentle scent, like something that had been lying under sunlight for a long time.

It didn’t match his face at all, but it suited his personality perfectly.

I had never met a man with such an innocent scent before.

The wariness that had filled my chest sank all the way down past my knees.

If I stayed by this man’s side just a little longer, I felt like I might stop guarding myself against him entirely.

‘How can a twenty-five-year-old man feel this pure?’

It was on a completely different level from Jeong Iheon’s sly familiarity in the real world.

It made me curious about Hyeon Jaeyul’s past.

Just how had he grown up to be this pure?

‘I’m dying to ask, and yet he doesn’t remember anything.’

At first, that had been a relief.

Now, with curiosity swelling inside me, it felt like the opposite.

As Hyeon Jaeyul awkwardly fumbled at my waist, I pressed my nose against his shoulder and kept sniffing at his scent.

Maybe I sniffed too much, because he cautiously asked,

“…What are you doing?”

“Jaeyul, you smell really good.”

When I murmured in a dazed voice, he timidly stroked the ends of my long hair with clumsy hands, like someone who had never touched a woman’s hair before, and obediently bared his neck to me.

His overheated body was burning hot, his heart racing wildly, yet his attitude remained gentle and compliant.

“…Really?”

“Yeah. Like a blanket dried in the sun. Soft and fluffy.”

“If that’s not bad….”

“It’s really good.”

“I’m glad you like it.”

[Hyeon Jaeyul’s affection has increased slightly!]

Hyeon Jaeyul muttered shyly in response to my firm tone.

Burying my face against his thick, muscular neck, purring in contentment, I noticed the system message and let out a long breath.

Maybe a 19+ romance simulation wasn’t so bad after all.

If it weren’t for that borderline-forced mission, I never would’ve thought of being held in Hyeon Jaeyul’s arms like this.

‘Well, for now at least… it’s not bad.’

I rubbed my rising smile against his neck as I thought.

“…Hng!”

When my soft lips pressed against his neck, Hyeon Jaeyul let out a small moan.

Trying to steady his breathing, he spoke,

“Haa….You said your name was Doya, right? Go Doya.”

“Yeah. I really, really, seriously hate being called by my surname.

Just call me Doya. If you call me Go Doya, I’ll bite your lips.”

When I repeated myself, he obediently replied that he didn’t mind being bitten, but if I disliked it, he wouldn’t call me that.

It was the kind of attitude that said it wouldn’t even leave a mark if I bit him.

As I kept kissing along his neck, deliberately stoking his arousal, Hyeon Jaeyul started asking oddly mundane questions, seemingly unaware that his erection was poking insistently at my waist.

“Hhng….How old are you?”

“Twenty-three.”

“I see….Ah, I’m—”

“Twenty-five. I know. I told you.”

Cutting him off mid-sentence made his voice sink lower.

“You really do know me.”

His consciousness was clearly foggy from arousal.

Unlike when he was fully lucid, he was now accepting everything I said without question.

In an extremely slow, quiet voice, Hyeon Jaeyul spoke to me.

“Doya…I’m sorry I don’t remember.”

It felt like I was inputting memories into a machine.

I wasn’t good at lying, but I’d spent my life playing roles that lowered people’s guard using my appearance just to survive.

As I imprinted myself onto him, I felt no guilt at all.

Instead, I seized the opportunity.

“It’s okay. I remember.”

As I kissed my way upward, I felt the thick vein beneath his firm jaw pulse heavily against my lips.

At that instinctive reaction, my lips twitched upward.

‘At this rate, his heart’s going to burst.’

[Hyeon Jaeyul’s affection has increased significantly!]

[[TIP! Maintain affection at an appropriate level! Hyeon Jaeyul’s affection is way too high right now!

Seriously, it’s really high! He genuinely thinks you’re his lost childhood friend! This is a problem!]]

Ah, there it was again.

Along with the affection increase window, another system tip popped up.

Judging by how worried it seemed, it had even dropped honorifics, just like when it messaged me after I stayed in the bunker too long.

As always, I ignored it.

‘So what? If it’s a romance simulation, you’re telling me to seduce him, right?’

After turning my life upside down, what is it complaining about now?

I like Hyeon Jaeyul.

‘And if he likes me too, what’s the problem? Even if he finds out later it was all an act, I’ll make it so he can’t bring himself to hate me.’

As I peppered kisses up along his neck, Hyeon Jaeyul’s body gradually lost its strength.

“Ah… sorry.”

When I finally reached his lips and gently bit his lower lip, his massive body collapsed downward.

Even as he sank to the ground, he cradled me against his thighs, wrapping his body around mine to keep me from getting hurt.

Apologizing while falling, plus protecting me, plus.

I kept adding points for him in my head.

Nothing but pluses since the moment we met.

That was rare.

Someone you’d regret losing.

‘Would it be okay to run away with Hyeon Jaeyul, just the two of us?’

I even found myself imagining stealing him away from the men of the real world.

Rather than letting him suffer among men who treated him roughly, getting hurt and beaten over the head, it’d be much better to keep him by my side, sharing pleasant moments together now and then.

‘A man I want to keep this badly.’

I made up my mind to seduce him completely.

After all, now that my life had turned into a romance simulation, men were no longer optional.

‘If that’s the case, I should at least choose one I actually like.’

Hyeon Jaeyul wasn’t even excluded from the list of target characters.

Releasing his lips gently, I thought.

In front of me were flushed cheeks, reddened lips, and beneath thick lashes, dark eyes glistening with moisture.