Chapter 3: They say it’s the blessing of the fox god?

“Ugh!!!!?”

Flutter-

A girl throws open the blanket and jumps up from the bed, startled. What is this?

“Ugh..! Hic, ugh…!”

Yes, it’s me, Jeong Semin.

Jeong Semin, who recently became a woman and was on the verge of being corrupted.

“H, hic, hic..”

I know it’s a dream, but the intensity of the realism is no joke.

The feeling of the aftereffects of those sensations lingering even after waking up from the dream.

It’s a sensation of fragmented memories.

What did I do yesterday?

“….. Ah, uh, ugh…!”

Then, I remembered the absence of the amulet, and I immediately forgot why I didn’t take it out and put my hand in my pajamas.

Rustle-

“…Ah…?”

What greeted my hand in my pajamas was a fragmented amulet.

What..”

I couldn’t understand it.

It was definitely a dream, and that fox spirit doesn’t exist.

Or should I say it exists?

Damn it, I don’t know.

But that doesn’t matter, why is it torn?

I don’t usually believe in this stuff.

Damn it, damn it.

It’s a dream, it’s a dream.

“Ugh…!”

Scary, scary, scary.

Am I really being violated? Am I really being eaten?

I don’t know, so only vague fear engulfs me.

If my first time is really taken by a ghost, I, I..

“Marriage, no… How can I get married…?”

Of course, I had no intention of going for the reasons I mentioned before, but you never know.

The fragments of the amulet, torn to pieces by the claws of a beast, made it easier for me to be caught up in the fear of the future and the fear that it might not be a dream.

Sigh, sigh…..

It’s despair, damn it.

The morning sun is rising, but I don’t feel like going to school at all.

I was stirring the amulet pieces and cursing the fortune-teller lady in my heart.

“….Ah”

I remembered.

The free trial is one-time use, once you blow the chance, it’s over.

She hinted at it only once.

D*mn it…”

Life is f*cked up.

Really, then do I have to spend another 10,000 won to buy another amulet?

And if I fail again, do I have to buy another one?

What happens to my money?

My wallet?

“Ugh…”

Tears blur my vision.

I just wanted to live a normal high school life.

I just wanted to have fun with my friends.

Just.

Just.

Why is this d*mn disease’s prodromal symptom so small, just, ugh.

Various thoughts rush through my head, it’s hard, I can’t stand it.

I’m so confused by what’s happening for the first time in my life.

And maybe it’s because I was so busy at my part-time job yesterday and the day before, but my body feels unusually, so heavy.

Ah.

“….. Ah..”

Come to think of it, today is Saturday.

It’s a day off.

“….. He…. Hehehe…”

I suddenly smiled at the thought of not going to school.

At this point, I don’t know if the ghost is scary or if I’m scary, but anyway, it’s certain that I’m in a very unstable and precarious state right now.

My head is too complicated.

But that smile was short-lived, if I fall asleep here again tonight, I’ll have that dream again, and I’ll meet that fox girl again, and again…

“Again and again and again……. Ugh…!!!”

Scratch scratch scratch

I scratched my head nervously, making a mess, and left the room.

This week was a very busy week.

My part-time job was busy because it was the peak season, and my life was busy because it was a mess.

It was impossible for my body not to be heavy.

Thud

My mother went to work, and my older brother and sister…. No, is it older brother and sister now?

My older brother lives separately, and my older sister is out of the country for a business trip, so she’s not home.

Ah, I really don’t like these titles.

Let’s just use brother and sister.

“Sigh..”

Lonely.

Being alone at home is, as always, lonely.

Of course, it’s good to be free and comfortable.

No one bothers me, and I can do whatever I want.

But I can do that to my heart’s content next year.

Now.

Now, I’d rather have someone interfere.

That.

That’s the only thing I can feel as a high school student, something like a high school student.

Because it’s something like a student.

“He”

But let’s play.

Let’s play first.

Freedom isn’t forever!

Let’s enjoy being alone! Yay!

“Yay~”

So, with my energy restored, I put my anxiety aside for now and made ramen.

“Hehe~”

Boil boil-

Ramen that I can’t make often on weekdays because I’m busy.

For me, ramen is the best food and the supreme food.

Michelin blah blah blah for 200,000 won per person at a restaurant? What’s the point, you can eat that if you have money, but this ramen.

This ramen gives me memories that only ramen can give.

The relationship between me and ramen is like that.

Ramen is my life, and my life is ramen.

Please sponsor me.

“Slurp..”

A T-shirt stretched out to the neck, missing bottoms.

I can’t resist the ramen in a small pot with messy hair.

The reason I could not starve, the reason I could not lose my smile.

I can’t smile without this.

I can erase any worries with this.

….

Shall I play some games after a long time..”

So, after enjoying my happy time with ramen, I roughly throw it in the sink, go back to my room, and turn on the computer.

It was a little slow to start because it was the first time in five days, but I knew it would come back soon, so with infinite patience, I turned on the game I used to play often.

Then, I turned my head to open the window, but I trembled slightly.

But I took a deep breath, shook off my worries, opened the window to create a comfortable environment, and headed to the pleasant game world.

“Mid lane, mid lane, no, I said mid lane, you f*-“

The game world is a perfect place to escape from the gloomy real world.

Because all anxiety disappears while playing games.

Tap tap tap tap, bang bang bang!

“No, why did you go in there and die..!!! Sigh, have you played this game once or twice..?”

Of course, it’s inevitable to get a little angry, but even that is part of stress relief.

This is how I, a busy person, relieve the fatigue of the week.

But.

It’s not fun”

So, even Saturday, which seemed perfect, and the 24 hours of Saturday.

It became boring after 6 p.m.

Even if I meet and play with Hyeji

It would have been okay, but then I’m afraid of the aftereffects that will come tonight, and I don’t have much energy.

So, I had no choice but to turn off the computer and sit on the living room sofa.

If that dad was there.

If that trash was there, would it have been a little better?

It’s disgusting, but it’s a thought that comes to me whenever I’m lonely.

Why, alone?

The sun hasn’t even set yet, and I can hear the sounds of children younger than me playing outside.

The sofa is right next to the window, so I could see those children.

Did I play like that when I was in elementary school?

How did it come to this.

How did I.

Lying on the sofa with my arms on the armrest and looking out the window looked lonely.

The feeling of me looking at me like that is a very cold color.

The dark pastel-toned house reflected me like that.

It still hurts that no one is there.

Everyone has their own pain, and everyone is living a painful life somewhere somehow.

But everyone is chasing happiness, but why is it that being alone.

Why is the fact of being alone so painful?

Why is waiting for my mother to come home after 9 p.m. so sad?

When I stand alone now, will I be able to endure the loneliness that will come to me?

Scary.

Cold living room, I lay on the sofa with my arms on the armrest and closed my eyes.

My mouth was not visible, and I felt cold eyes piling up on me.

Bleak.

Will I be able to endure next week?

If the week after next week comes, will I be able to exist as me?

Han Hyeji.

Ahn Yura.

Shim Taeyeon, I miss them.

Will I be able to see them whenever I want?

Cold.

Swish-

Did I fall asleep for a while?

Ugh..”

When I opened my eyes, I was asleep on the sofa with my face buried in something fluffy.

I don’t remember bringing a pillow, so I slowly raised my head to understand the situation.

Soon, I could see two soft, white lumps of flesh under that fluffy something.

….. Ah..”

What

is it.

What was it?

It was hard to put into words the emotions I felt then.

Was it fear, was it worry?

Or was it relief, was it warmth?

I couldn’t say for sure what it was, but I could say this one thing for sure.

You can sleep a little longer.. Se-min

Looking down at me

The fox-eared sister who was smiling had a very benevolent smile.

I could feel warmth in that smile.

That one thing was certain.

It was warmth.

In the pastel-toned cold living room, the paint of warmth spilled and spread.

I hugged that fluffy ball of fur and closed my eyes again.

The fluffy feeling stimulated my face and made me smile.

Not bad.

I don’t know why, but I like it.

If it’s like this, I don’t want to refuse.

I won’t refuse.

Slide-

As I rubbed my face against the fur ball, the fox sister started stroking my head. Like that that

I was so happy.

It felt like I was being properly compensated for my days, my time, which was scattered because I was so busy.

You worked hard..”

Her whisper stimulated my ears until the very end, and I fell asleep again.

Tap tap tap

“Se-min, aren’t you cold?”

Ugh…?”

And I was soon able to open my eyes again.

“You left it open, it’s the change of seasons.. Anyway, I’m back, go to your room and sleep.. Your mouth will droop.” The window too

“Ah.. Yeah, Mom..”

Uh

It was 10 p.m., and I woke up thanks to my mother and realized that I was asleep with my arm on the armrest of the sofa.

I wondered if that was also a dream.

Now, whether it’s a dream or not

It doesn’t matter.

It doesn’t really affect reality anyway.

Now I have to think of it as a part of my life and live with it, since it’s come to this.

“Yawn…”

“Good night, our…. Semin~”

I waved to my mother, who greeted me, and went into my room and closed the door.

To be honest, 4 hours ago

Until then even I this thought wouldn’t have imagined.

But the emptiness in my heart that she filled in the dream I had earlier, that insignificant emptiness in my heart.

….

“I should just sleep.”

For me It was too big.

Loneliness was too big of a pain for me.

That

I was able to accept it.

Still, her smile remains in my head.

Slide-

The blanket is softer today, and I feel even better than yesterday.

If she comes on strong in my dream tonight, just for today.

Just for tonight, should I play along?

It’s only the third time, but just for today.

Just for today.

Sizzle-

Like cotton candy melting, I fell asleep again.

And that day, I was able to wake up after a very refreshing sleep without anything happening.