Chapter 42: If I Hate You, I’ll Do It Again

I tried to convince myself that I was fine, but Emerald insisted that I was half-forcibly admitted to the hospital.

Ah, no. My Tamako. My despair…!

Maybe because I had been eating the despair of magical girls a lot recently, the despair I felt at the hospital wasn’t enough.

Gulp.

‘I’m hungry, I’m hungry…’

Even though Emerald had bought me this and that, it was only human food.

This wasn’t enough to fill my stomach.

Ugh, I’m hungry.

Just like a child who already knows how to feel full doesn’t want to experience hunger again, I didn’t want to just eat the despair of humans anymore.

‘I can’t do this.’

I got up from my seat and slowly walked towards the window.

It was 2 AM right now.

The time was late at night when all the humans were asleep.

…I should go get a midnight snack.

I didn’t know if there was still any left—no, there definitely was.

I slowly opened the window and thought for a moment.

There was only one place I had to go.

It was the underground research lab where I had gone on an adventure not long ago.

“…Huh.”

Just as I was about to jump out the window, I narrowed my eyes at the faintly visible shadow.

A human?

No, it didn’t seem to be a human.

There was no way a human would be walking around fearlessly at such an ambitious time.

“Who is it really—?”

I focused my eyes on the shadow of a person, and something like a square sketchbook came into view.

The moment I slowly read the large red letters written there, my narrowed eyes instantly widened.

[Even if I hate it, once again]

“…That, really?”

I was so flustered that I couldn’t speak properly.

No, didn’t you run away and go somewhere?

I was so flustered that my body moved before my words.

I placed my hand on the window and jumped, and the other person’s eyes widened.

“Didn’t you abandon me?”

“T-that… That was an accident!”

“What kind of accident is that?”

He just disappeared without a trace.

As I stared at the head that was far below me, the other person began to notice.

When he ran away, he was so cruel and left, but now what?

Even if you hate him, you’re going to do it again?

“Come on, it was a joke! It was a joke! You know how I feel, Monster Girl!”

“I have a name called Akari.”

“What is that, a name that doesn’t suit me at all.”

Sure, it’s a bit strange for a monster to be named Akari (light).

But the funniest thing was that my name wasn’t derived from light.

Can you imagine that I was going to call Emerald Apocalypse but ended up saying Akani?

“Anyway, help me, Monster Girl! No, Akari!”

“I don’t want to.”

“Uh, why?!”

The face that used to look like a crazy scientist finally became a little more pleasant.

The poisonous eyes I first saw had lost some of their strength—no, I should say they completely disappeared.

I raised the corners of my mouth at the doctor who was looking up at me with tearful eyes at the sharp rejection.

“A magical girl is coming, and you abandoned me like that, and now you’re asking me to help you?”

“T-that…”

“There’s something I need to tell you before that, right, us.”

He crossed his arms and made a firm expression as if he wasn’t going to let it go.

To some, it looked like he was an adult and the other was a child, but it was actually the opposite that was funny.

“I’m sorry…”

“Louder.”

“I’m sorry….”

“At least loud enough to touch my heart, louder!”

“I’m so sorry…!!!”

The doctor clenched his fists and shut his eyes tightly as he shouted at my pressure that wasn’t pressure.

That proud doctor apologizing to me.

To be honest, I thought he wouldn’t apologize until the very end.

“Who the hell are you at this hour!? Why don’t you be quiet?!!!?!”

“Ugh, ugh…”

The doctor’s voice must have been quite loud.

One of the humans who heard her loud apology opened the window and screamed.

Honestly, it seemed much louder over there.

Anyway.

“T-To hear this from a human… Ugh, I’m so angry… I could die from rage… Ugh…** Is he crying?”

Really? ‘That’ doctor is crying?

Really?

I don’t know what happened, but seeing that evil monster in the original work shedding tears like this made me feel quite “Ugh.”

—quite, quite, good.

Yes, cry more, cry more!

A doctor crying at the human’s yelling.

The corners of my mouth went up involuntarily as something I couldn’t even imagine was happening before my eyes.

“Suddenly, a crazy guy barged into my lab and chased me as if he was going to kill me… Ugh, damn it!”

“A crazy guy?”

The craziest of the crazies was right in front of me.

As I looked at the doctor with that meaning, the doctor’s expression became blank for a moment when he noticed my gaze.

“Hey!! I’m not that crazy! Not to that extent! At least I didn’t become a magical girl! Tsk…!!”

“You wanted to become a magical girl?”

The doctor being a magical girl?

That’s a bit crazy…

No, maybe it suits her better than I thought?

After all, her appearance was no different from that of any other human girl.

There were quite a few people who liked the doctor because of that appearance, and yeah.

“No, it’s just a metaphor! Tsk, a human suddenly turned into a monster and what? Shouldn’t I pay for ruining my lab?”

Tsk, tsk tsk!!!

I think I know who it is.

No, it’d be strange if I didn’t know.

That guy Curse, I never imagined you would be so narrow-minded, but I can’t believe you were that narrow-minded.

You’re not satisfied with just poking a hole in someone else’s heart, so you go after the person’s mother and destroy their family?

Well, it doesn’t really matter since they’re abandoned parents and their children.

“So help me, Monster Girl!”

“..Monster girl?”

“No, Akari! Just thinking about that guy makes me so angry that I vomit out all the despair I’ve been feeling!”

The doctor kicked the ground with his feet as if his anger hadn’t subsided.

He giggled as he looked at the dirt floor, which had left only a few footprints, unlike any monster.

I think I know why he came to me.

His lab was completely plundered by a human he had underestimated, but he couldn’t overcome it because he was weak, so he came to me, the most likely candidate.

“But if you come to ask someone for a favor, you have to be sincere, sincerity.”

“Sincerity? You mean an apology isn’t enough?”

“Were you planning to brush it off with an apology? You have no conscience.”

It seems like you don’t understand who you should be hanging on to right now, but right now you’re the one who’s feeling sorry for them?

If you’re going to get my help, at least do something with the despair of a magical girl.

Originally, the most important thing in a deal was to confirm that the other person had what they wanted.

“Well, at least since you’re a doctor, you should have at least the despair of a magical girl.”

I didn’t really feel the despair of a magical girl from the doctor.

I didn’t really feel the despair of a magical girl from the doctor.

Because it was important, I said it twice.

“What do you want? I’ll do whatever I can.”

“Give me the despair of a magical girl. You took my share so much that it’s still in my dreams?”

“What, that wasn’t taken from me. It was my share from the beginning!”

…Is that so?

Then you mean you didn’t have anything to give me?

You created it yourself, and even though you arbitrarily ordered me to fight magical girls, you didn’t give me even a single despair charge?

And then you came to see me, you idiot doctor.

Even though you had incredible talent as a researcher, you seemed to have no social skills or anything like that.

No, you were just a total flop.

“That’s right.”

“Oh, right? You’re not going to throw me away, are you? I ran all the way here… You’re not going to help me, are you? Huh? Huh? Huh?!”

“Huhhhhhhhhhhh…”

Is there any value to a doctor who doesn’t have the despair of a magical girl?

There was no answer.

“There’s nothing I can do.”

“Then I’ll help you—”

“I think our relationship ends here, Doctor.”

“Why?!”

Seriously, I was out because I didn’t know why.

The doctor, who started to cling to me after hearing my firm rejection, was so annoying.

I patted his arm with a little irritation, and he fell down helplessly.

If I had human emotions, I would have felt pity for him, but all I felt from him right now was annoyance.

“I, I made you! Then I should have helped you at least once!”

Was it not enough to just get you off my back once?

I looked down at the doctor, who was now clinging to me with all his might, and sighed.

It didn’t seem like he would go back easily.

It was fortunate that it was dawn right now, but if he had come during the day and encountered Emerald, it would have been a disaster.

“You could have just made another one like me. Do you really need me?”

“Doctor?”

“Doctor?”

The doctor lowered his head at my words and began to tremble.

When I called out to him at the faint sound of voices, the doctor suddenly raised his head.

His face, raised like that, was a mess due to tears.

“I can’t! I can’t! I used my despair core to create you! Sobbing.”

“Huh?”

No, yes?

I’m sorry, but… How are you alive now?