Chapter 62: The Unnoticed Transformation

Song Chae-rin left after hugging me for a long time. She did a lot of things while hugging me.

She petted me, hugged me tightly, whispered to me.

She even showed me her favorite videos in front of me.

…I was so caught up in her pace that I didn’t realize it.

Isn’t she treating me too much like a child? Given the size difference, it seems like it, but… we actually have a five-year age gap.

There was nothing I could do about it, even if I realized it now.

Come to think of it, she’s really sociable. I wouldn’t have been able to talk to someone five years older than me because I would’ve been too scared.

…No, maybe she’s just not scared…?

Anyway, after seeing Song Chae-rin off, I returned home.

And the first thing I decided to do was…

Take a shower.

I went into the bathroom and looked around for no reason.

…I lifted the front of my pajama pants and looked inside.

“Woah…”

A sound close to a sigh came out.

There was… um.

The scene in front of me was something you’d only see in exaggerated adult media.

Is it just my body, or are all women’s bodies like this?

…

Am I weird?

Or is this normal?

Do women really get… like this so easily?

No, that can’t be it.

It’s probably because I used to be a man.

My interest in women has lessened, but whether it’s inertia or something else, I still feel an attraction to women.

Originally, I really didn’t know if I liked men or women… but after recent events, I overwhelmingly prefer women.

With all these complex reasons, it’s natural for my body to react to Song Chae-yeon, Yoo Ji-eun, Song Chae-rin, and  Yu-jin, who are objectively very attractive.

Thinking about it like that made me feel a bit less guilty.

Still, it would be a huge problem if I got caught.

If I apply this to same-gender relationships between men…

“Ugh…”

It’s really awful. Seriously.

I need to avoid getting caught as much as possible. I think I’ve been successful so far… probably.

I thought I could just tell them not to do it, but when I avoided their touch once, they both looked so devastated that I awkwardly agreed.

Then their expressions returned to normal, like it was a lie.

…Well, unlike men, it’s really hard for women to get caught when they’re turned on…? so it’ll probably be okay.

I just need to endure it. As long as I don’t get as stimulated as I did this afternoon with Yoo Ji-eun and Song Chae-hyun.

I briefly recalled that feeling with a burning face, then turned on the water and took off my clothes.

[The Jobless, No-Life, Virgin, Loner, Pretty Girl has started streaming.]

After confirming the pop-up,

I stared intently at the monitor.

Because staring intently at the webcam would be too obvious.

• Miha
• I missed you

Since the previous stream had a heavy atmosphere, the chat was still a bit cautious.

But when I smiled and waved, it quickly returned to its usual self.

I felt relieved and then,

Again, without a word, I just stared at the monitor.

As if nothing had happened, just like a normal, everyday stream.

• Bell on right away
• Play the game right away
• She seems okay now
• Good for her…
• That’s our leader
• Are you going to play Vice again today
• Vice is so boring

I didn’t respond to the chat.

I had already decided on my first words.

I was just waiting for the right moment.

One minute passed.

I kept glancing at the chat, trying not to be obvious.

• She’s not saying anything
• Did we do something wrong…?

Another 30 seconds passed.

• What’s wrong f*ck
• It’s killing me
• Leader, your mic is off
• Please say something I’m getting anxious

Huh?

Why can’t they recognize it?

It’s impossible not to recognize it at this level.

I put on makeup.

And I did it very diligently, looking up beauty YouTubers and tips, with even higher-level makeup skills.

It’s like the highest rank SSSR evolved past the system and became SSSUR.

Why can’t they recognize it?

The first words I had planned were, very naturally, as if nothing was wrong, covering my mouth and saying,

‘Oh? How did you know?’

But that plan was messed up from the start.

I thought about the reason.

Wait, why am I even thinking about this?

Isn’t it obvious that they should notice?

When I thought about that, I got annoyed with the viewers.

• What is it? lol
• Did you just glare at us? lol
• You did something? I didn’t see anything
• I didn’t see it
• You glared at us for like 0.001 seconds just now
• Girly behavior on

…

I had no choice.

This was the only way to relieve my feelings.

But even after ten or so seconds, not a single viewer noticed.

Ah, seriously.

…

I can’t help it.

I really didn’t want to say it, but.

“Hey, everyone.”

My voice came out a bit sulky.

• Oh..She spoke
• Yes yes

“D-don’t I look different?”

• Ah.
• Ah
• f*ck lol
• What’s wrong with her again
• It’s killing me already

Even with this much of a hint, no one noticed.

No, this is weird at this point.

Even if men are dull, this is crossing the line.

I was briefly lost in thought, when.

• HonestMan has donated 1000 won.
• No, seriously, I don’t see anything different so just shut up and play Bell
• Gasp
• Wow
• Refreshing…
• Gasp
• Our hero lol
• lol
• Wha..
• Yeah, I agree
• Gasp…

“Get out.”

I pressed alt-tab at the speed of light and pressed the temporary ban button.

Annoying.

I looked for a place to vent my anger.

“Refreshing. Our hero. Yeah. I agree. Anyone who said things like this, get out.”

I temporarily banned all the annoying comments for one minute.

• ??
• Period on lol
• Run away!!!!!!
• Everyone take your hands off the keyboard!
• The structure where only the truly powerless viewers suffer… ㅠㅠ

I was trying to catch my slightly ragged breath, when.

• IhyunLover has donated 1000 won.
• If you’re asking if your appearance changed, I can’t see because there’s no light so there’s a halo

‘…??’

I shifted my gaze to the light right in front of me.

“Ah.”

The light was off.

…I forgot.

At my dumbfounded sound and my eyes slowly, slowly checking the chat.

The chat realized I had done something stupid.

• Ah you idiot
• Please do an IQ test Pretty Girl I’ll pay for it
• If she was a man she would have been a mess in the military for sure
• <<< Number 1 girl who’s lucky to be born a girl
• Give us back our hero Give us back our hero Give us back our hero Give us back our hero
• Our hero ㅠㅠ
• How are we supposed to know if you put on makeup in the dark f*ck

“W-well… what do you want me to do?”

My face was a little hot, so I spoke bluntly and lowered my head.

…It’s my fault… let’s unban them.

And then I took a beating for a while, and when I thought I had taken enough, I turned on the light.

• Wow
• You’re so pretty
• lol I can see why you were upset that we didn’t notice lol
• lol
• lol
• But you’re really pretty How is that unedited
• No joke, you’re in the top 1 percent of TV stars
• I hate exaggerations but I agree

Pretending to be calm, I tucked my hair behind my ear and looked away.

I slowly turned my head from side to side.

I wiggled my feet, which no one could see, to express my joy.

Still, there’s one more thing I need to ask.

“Tell me quickly.”

• You put on fake eyelashes
• You look toned up

“Wrong.”

I don’t put on fake eyelashes because mine are already long.

And if I get any whiter than I already am, I’ll become a ghost.

They might have guessed both, so I temporarily banned anyone who got it wrong for one minute.

• Wow
• lol
• Crazy… lol
• This is why people like this shouldn’t have power

After I correctly identified everything that had changed about me, I finally started playing the game again.

“Hmm…”

I stretched and secretly enjoyed the reactions that the viewers liked.

“Ah!”

I suddenly remembered something I had forgotten.

“We made our YouTube channel again.”

• Ah
• Ah…
• What
• Is it a normal person this time?
• Make sure to choose carefully
• Don’t just meet anyone

Worried reactions, as expected.

“Thanks for the concern… but this time it’s a female editor. Chae-hyun unnie’s younger sister.”

• Oh
• If it’s a woman, it’s safe…
• Unicorns are relievedlol
• But yeah, she’s surrounded by women
• I told you she’s a lesbi*an

“So please leave nice comments.”

• We’re so nice outside of here
• lol
• Ah
• We’re always nice
• Leader, there’s no one more evil than you

“W-what are you talking about.”

I felt a bit guilty about the last comment.

• Someone has donated 1000 won.
• But what was the original channel? I feel like I’ve seen these videos somewhere
• What was it? It was a unique nickname

“……”

I was thinking whether to say it or not, when.

• Isn’t it Unvirgin Pretty Girl Fan?
• ??
• Really?
• No way lol
• That video where the leader got caught watching por*n with hundreds of thousands of views was on that channel
• Ah that’s right
• f*ck legend lol

“Damn it.”

They found out before I could choose.

I guess it was inevitable… the name changed but the videos didn’t.

• Manager-nim’s sister is a bit weird
• How can a woman name a channel like that? lol
• Is she really a woman? lol
• Legendary
• LuckyXXchromosome lol

There’s no way to cover this up.

I’m sorry, Chae-rin.

At least Song Chae-hyun isn’t on the manager list. Let’s be thankful for that.

After the stream ended, I called chae-hyun unnie to see if Chae-rin got home safely.

As soon as she picked up, I heard Song Chae-hyun’s excited voice.

– Thank you for playing with Chae-rin and hiring her, I-hyun. She talked about you a lot even after she came back.

“Hehe… it’s nothing.”

I felt like I was the one being taken care of…

– But honestly, I was surprised.

“About what?”

– That Chae-rin was doing that kind of work. No wonder she didn’t ask for allowance…

– She even got a job from I-hyun. I’m so proud of her.

– Yeah… for a middle schooler to have that kind of skill is amazing.

– Can you tell me the channel name?

“Um… High School Dropout, Virgin, Loner, Pretty Girl, and then official in English.”

They don’t know that was the old name, so it should be okay to say it.

Besides, I can’t hide it forever.

– But do you have any plans to change the name…? Hmm….

“Hmm…”

Honestly, I’ve thought about it sometimes…

“I’ll think about it more for now. I can’t think of anything…”

– Okay. Let’s think about it together. Hmm, let’s see… you have a lot of subscribers?

“It’s the channel with the second most subscribers that edits my videos.”

– Really? Wow…

Song Chae-hyun  exclaimed and said in a slightly choked-up voice, proud of Song Chae-rin.

– Chae-rin may not be very sociable, but she’s a very capable child. She’s considerate, hardworking, smart, and she fills in for her lacking older sister.

I nodded and said I agree.

I can’t really agree with the not being sociable part…

Song Chae-hyun continued to praise her, then suddenly stopped.

– A comment says, “Unvirgin Pretty Girl Fan-nim, why did you change your name?” What’s this?

“…”

My mouth fell open.

I didn’t expect this.

Yoo Ji-eun was silent too.

Song Chae-hyun continued in a puzzled voice.

– Blonde guy’s younger sister, what kind of channel name is this…

– How is the channel name Unvirgin Pretty Girl Fan…

– Is this… a young woman’s naming sense…?

– Why did you change your name I liked the old one better…?

And then, after a moment of silence.

– What is all this, I-hyun?

“Uh… um,”

Suddenly, the arrow was pointed at me.

How, how do I explain this?

I don’t see a way.

While I was stammering, Song Chae-hyun seemed to be lost in thought for a moment, then.

Where did Song Chae-rin go.

Her cold voice faded away.

Yoo Ji-eun and I silently mourned for Song Chae-rin.

I’m sorry, Chae-rin…