Chapter 64: Losing Streak Catastrophe

“….”

I stared blankly at the disaster in front of me.

It’s a lie.

It’s nearly impossible to distinguish between dreams and reality. Isn’t there a famous idiom, the Butterfly Dream?

I’ve become a butterfly now.

I must have fallen asleep and am just having a terrible nightmare. Just that.

If I pull my cheek, the unrealistic lack of pain will tell me it’s a dream.

I thought, pulling my cheek.

“Ouch…”

It hurts. The pressure on the cheek’s mucous membrane, which was stuck to my teeth, released with a popping sound.

It’s not a dream…

• What are you doing?
• She’s finally lost it lol
• Honestly, it’s understandable that she’d lose it
• lol This is legendary
• She’s a pro streamer, she’s purposely lowering her score to make us laugh, big picture lol

Unlike me, the chat was in a festive mood. I stared at it blankly, then.

Again, I moved my eyes to the terrible disaster, the monitor in front of me.

System Update

League Update: Demoted to Master | in Solo/Duo Rank.

“…It’s a lie.”

Even seeing it in reality, it still doesn’t feel real.

I was definitely in Grandmaster 900 LP.

Why am I here?

How many losses in a row did I get?

Doesn’t this not make sense?

“It’s a lie… it’s a lie…”

• But honestly, I think there’s some stream sniping lol
• I don’t know
• It’s stream sniping but also her team’s luck is so bad that she loses, her mentality breaks, and now she can’t win even when her team’s luck is good

“Ugh…”

I made a strange sound and slid down the chair. Only my face was visible on the webcam.

After being pessimistic about the world for a while… I sat up again.

“…It’s okay… it’s okay.”

I muttered to myself and turned Bell back on, which I had rage-quit when my Nexus exploded.

I made a small sound as I typed my ID into the blank field.

“Just 10 wins in a row, just 10 wins in a row to get back. If that seems hard, let’s think of it as 20 wins and 10 losses to get back. Yeah. I can definitely do it.”

Thinking like that made me feel a little better.

I slapped my cheeks a few times with both hands.

“Let’s go, Moon I-hyun!”

I shouted and pressed the start game button.

Master

– 23

343 LP

I stared blankly at that score for a few minutes.

Drool slightly dripped from my unknowingly open mouth.

• Drooling
• Close your mouth Pretty Girl lol
• lol
• Why is this so funny
• She used to subtly brag about her high score, but now that she’s about to become friends with us lol
• DiamondMasterAssociation has donated 1000 won.
• Our Diamond Master Association congratulates The Jobless, No-Life, Virgin, Loner, Pretty Girl on entering Master
• Someone has donated 1000 won.
• I just barely got into Master 0 LP with a new account, are we friends now?

“No we’re not!!!”

I shouted reflexively at the donation.

“We’re not friends…! I just dropped down for a bit…! And what’s with the new account….”

“This doesn’t make sense! How many games has it been like this…! The game doesn’t work because the support and jungle are bad…!”

• Hmm…
• Hmm…
• Is that so…?
• But isn’t mid the main character… why can’t she win if the mid is good (seriously, I don’t know)
• lol Stop provoking her
• She’s going to start shooting again… lol
• FactMan has donated 1000 won.
• If you were good, you wouldn’t have lost at least 20 in a row
• I agree
• lol
• lol
• Win rate doesn’t lie
• You were destined to fall, Pretty Girl

“…Get out.”

To suppress them a bit, I immediately issued a temporary ban.

Seriously, I hate that the most.

Those monsters of consequentialism, who are stuck in the convenience of judging skill based solely on wins and losses with a narrow perspective.

Bell isn’t that simple of a game. My team’s low performance has a more global impact than my high performance.

Luck actually exists. If you flip a coin 10 times, it doesn’t necessarily mean that heads and tails will each come up five times.

People like you ruin people who think deeply.

Bad people.

All sorts of thoughts came to mind… but I swallowed and forced them down.

“Ha…”

I put my hands on my head and leaned back in my chair.

I took one hand off and placed it on the mouse.

I sighed once.

I placed the mouse cursor on the start game button…

And clicked.

• Whoa
• You’re still playing?
• So stubborn lol
• Stop playing, your mentality is destroyed, how can you play

“I’m going to recover my rank today…”

I can recover if I win just 25 more games.

…

If that’s hard, I’ll think of it as needing to go 45 wins and 20 losses to climb back up.

• I’m really quitting Bell after seeing this, watching someone turn into a demon is really something
• The only loser here: Moon I-hyun The many winners: The 1939 viewers watching this and the manager’s younger sister who’s grinning because she sees good editing material
• Gay
• lol
• Based on utilitarianism, this is the right society

Master

– 24

13 LP

“Ugh…! Seriously…!”

Another day passed. I still don’t feel tired. There are countless losses, but only a handful of wins.

I wiggled my feet. I tapped the mouse pad a few times with my fist.

Not too hard… because it hurts.

Tears welled up because things weren’t going my way.

I’m so frustrated and annoyed. Why can’t I win?

I’m even more annoyed because I don’t know the reason.

But I felt like I really couldn’t cry here, so I gritted my teeth and held back the tears.

…I was immediately caught, though.

• How frustrated is she that she’s crying
• Damn… I’m starting to feel bad
• Is this the end of the two-day journey…
• She’s been going almost non-stop and this is the result
• She should have rested for a few hours, it’s a matter of condition
• This is a real Bell addict
• Stop, please, my heart aches
• She could easily recover if she rested, why is she being stubborn and ending up here

I briefly considered resting, really, really considered it.

But I felt like it would be a waste to stop now.

The mouse cursor… is being drawn to the start game button.

“Just one more game… I’ll play just one more game…”

• lol
• Bell is a disease
• Look at her, she’s lost it, it’s worse than gambling
• lol It’s funny to watch from the side, but it’s really awful

But, I couldn’t keep my promise to play just one more game.

System Update

League Update: Demoted to Diamond I in Solo/Duo Rank.

I just stared blankly at the unbelievable outcome with hollow eyes that had a hint of dark circles.

“Ah……”

“Guys… should I really just die?”

The tears have long since dried.

I just… just don’t want to live anymore.

I feel like all my efforts have been denied.

I don’t feel like self-harming, or doing anything to myself.

I just… want to lie down comfortably.

• lol
• Wow, I can’t believe I’m seeing a top Grandmaster fall to D1
• She’s really making a legend
• Over 5000 viewers lol
• Other people’s misery is really my happiness
• Yeah, people are this disgusting…
• Honestly, she deserves to die
• This is how people break down
• I’m going to petition to ban games after seeing this

I was staring blankly at those chats, when.

The message box showed

A new addition to my friend list, my only friend.

YooJiEunJiEunJiEunJiyu: I-hyun, please rest a bit… you don’t look well

Her warm message, trying to understand my feelings.

“Sniff…”

Tears welled up.

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo: Unnie ㅠㅠ

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo: I think I’m really going crazy…

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo: My team’s luck is really bad and I’m not playing well because my mentality is broken

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo: The viewers aren’t on my side either

YooJiEunJiEunJiEunJiyu: Yes, yes…

YooJiEunJiEunJiEunJiyu: You look really tired

YooJiEunJiEunJiEunJiyu: Let’s rest a bit

YooJiEunJiEunJiEunJiyu: Then you’ll feel better

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo: You’re the only ones I have…

I sniffled slightly as I typed, crying.

This is so sad

Unnie ㅠㅠ My heart aches…

• Whoa lol
• lol What a jerk lol

After chatting for a while, I closed the chat after saying ‘fighting’ since it seemed like the game was about to start.

“Sigh…”

I took a deep breath.

I should admit it by now.

I need rest.

I switched from ranked to normal.

• ??
• Why normal all of a sudden?
• Just sleep you crazy woman
• Ah, now she’s going to rest (switches from ranked to normal)
• It’s amazing that someone who never played normal is doing it now

“I’ll take viewers.”