Chapter 65: Healing Time with Viewers

I decided to do a viewer participation stream for a little break. I didn’t want to do it when I had fewer viewers to avoid forming cliques, but now that I’ve grown to a mid-tier streamer, it wouldn’t be a bad idea to try it once.

Honestly, the best option would be to sleep and start fresh tomorrow… but I really don’t want to sleep now. I’m sure I won’t be able to sleep because I won’t be able to control my anger. I’ll have nightmares too.

The biggest reason for my broken mentality is, of course, the losing streak, but the next reason is… when I’ve been playing ranked for the past few hours.

“I’m going to wash off my sweat.”

Smoke break lol
???: I want to beat the crap out of people who don’t cover invades
lol
The mysterious Twisted Fate main…
Thug Pretty Girl
?????
No
What are the nicknames on our team and the enemy team?
The nicknames are f*cking legendary lol
She’s meeting people like that now…

“Ah… now I feel alive.”

I said, hurriedly buying items and glancing at the chat.

“What is it?”

Are they laughing at the nicknames on our team and the enemy team?

I pressed tab to check.

“…What the.”

Did I see that wrong?

I briefly released tab, then pressed it again…

– SKT T1 Unvirgin Pretty Girl

– Pretty Girl’s Sweat Wiper

– MoonIhyunCaughtWatchingPornSecretly

– VirginLonerPrettyGirlSniper

– PrettyGirlBunnyPrettyGirl

Five out of nine people had those kinds of nicknames.

Three on our team, two on the enemy team…

…

It’s dizzying.

And I feel a sense of shame.

“Have I fallen so low that I’m meeting those things…?”

There was shame, but the sense of shame was immense.

I used to meet pros. I’ve even laned against Fayca.

“Those things”

lol
Pretty Girl/Controversy

MoonIhyunCaughtWatchingPornSecretly (Garen): Pretty Girl-nim

MoonIhyunCaughtWatchingPornSecretly (Garen): You’re calling your fans ‘those things’… please apologize.

SKT T1 Unvirgin Pretty Girl (Leona): Yeah

“Hey!! Don’t answer! Turn off your stream!?”

I shouted because it was so absurd.

And Leona is on the enemy team…

ILoveYukgaejang(??): Why are the nicknames here like this?

One of our team members, with a normal nickname, raises a question.

My face gets really hot.

Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): I’m sorry…

It might not be my fault… but I still felt sorry.

“Ah… seriously… why are you guys being so embarrassing…”

That guy has been playing for two weeks
He’s sniping too lol
lol He’s pretending not to know

“Really, you are?”

ILoveYukgaejang(??): lol

ILoveYukgaejang(??): Caught me

ILoveYukgaejang(??): Go Mo-ah-mi~

lol
Yesterday and today are legendary
How can she be awake for two days straight and still have so much streaming content lol

You f*cking b*stards…

The game was won by the team with fewer fan nicknames.

Which means we lost.

And then, the next game. The demotion match to Diamond 1.

I was typing angrily in chat.

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): Hey

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): Stop coming

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): Seriously

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): Where do you live?

The enemy jungler keeps coming to mid. Very blatantly.

The nickname is… as expected.

PrettyGirlMakeupEraser.

Seriously, I was so angry that I typed a few angry messages, which I hadn’t done in a while.

…Actually, I typed ‘mom’ instead of ‘where do you live’ but quickly erased it.

Whoa
lol
Whoa
The leader is saying whoa lol
Whoa don’t come out
Come out of my body, Cheo-juk-juk-cheo!!

“Sigh…”

Let’s focus for now.

But when I placed a ward in the dark bush,

The enemy jungler was waiting right there.

“Ah, seriously…!”

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): I said stop it

[All] Cheo-juk-juk-cheo(Vayne): Seriously, don’t do it

[All] PrettyGirlMakeupEraser(Nocturne): I’m a fan ^^

lol
f*ck
I shouldn’t laugh but it’s too funny
How can you not laugh when a Grandmaster/Challenger falls to Diamond
lol
Over 7000 viewers lol
She’s become the king of Losing…

“Ha… f*ck, seriously…”

…Because of those, disasters, and because I didn’t have confidence in managing my mentality,

I decided to do a viewer participation stream to restore my mentality.

“But how do I choose the users?”

My brain froze for a moment. Then I quickly said, “Ah.”

“Please don’t apply through donations. Don’t spend money on this. It makes me feel bad… and it’s not fair.”

I had money charged f*ck
You said you wanted to earn money
If you look closely, she’s always kicking away her own opportunities

“Type your nicknames in chat. Only once. If you copy and paste or type multiple, you’ll get a temporary ban.”

I said, and the chat became orderly, with everyone typing only once.

I’m a bit touched. They’re listening to me.

I closed my eyes, scrolled, and picked four people, then invited them.

The lobby quickly filled up.

“Oh…”

It’s something I’ve felt for a while. It’s fascinating to see my fans become real like this.

When viewers, who were originally just text, become real… it’s fascinating and I’m grateful.

…

Except for those jerks from earlier.

…

But, these people’s nicknames aren’t much better than those guys’…

“Then shall we start?”

I said, looking at the stream chat.

How about voice chat?
What is this nonsense
Don’t bring men in here

“Um… I’m sorry. I’m still a bit… scared of men… hehe… Ah, it’s not that I think the viewers are bad…”

I said with a bit of apology and started the game.

“That was fun…!”

Everyone was much more gentle than I thought.

They gave me buffs, they gave me gold…

It was a healing game after a long time. I laughed a lot. They kept making me laugh with chat or gameplay.

Seeing it like this, she’s really like a kid
Her giggling is so cute lol

Seeing it like this, Bell is a healing game…

It would have been perfect if the nicknames weren’t so weird… but still, this is something. The vaccine from earlier made me less embarrassed. Everyone was nice to me.

And if they love me enough to make my name their nickname… I felt good thinking about it.

“That was really fun. Thank you for playing with me…”

I said, bowing my head.

“Now then, I’ll gather different people and play one more game.”

I said, looking around the chat again.

In the midst of the many nicknames, I was about to close my eyes and choose, when.

I saw a chat message.

How about choosing only women this time

“Women?”

I chuckled and waved my hand.

“No… there are no women in my stream.”

I said, looking at the chat.

I-hyun unnie, I’m a woman
There are women here… ㅠㅠ
There are probably more women than you think

“Huh?”

There were a lot of unexpected chats.

“If I check your chat logs and you seem like a man, you’ll get a temporary ban.”

I’m really good at smelling men and women. I’ve seen many people pretending to be women online…

I chose one person claiming to be a woman and checked their chat history.

Unnie took a day off to watch I-hyun’s stream
I-hyun fighting ㅠㅠ
Unnie supports you a lot…
Really, hang in there

Sigh….

“What the. She really seems like a woman…?”

Not just seems like, it was so obvious that I was bewildered.

This is real?

This is really real

That’s definitely real

But.

“What’s this?”

I scrolled to the bottom.

What voice chat, it’s between men
Don’t do it with men
No voice chat
Never do it with men
Men are dangerous

lol What are those chats

How can a woman be a unicorn lol
There are female unicorns too

…

First, I asked for their nickname and invited them.

The nickname is… LovesSeolbing.

“Oh…”

How can she be so blatantly a woman…

Do women have a movement to make estrogen-like nicknames periodically?

lol
It’s the leader who’s weird
How can a woman’s nickname be Cheo-juk-juk-cheo lol
Seeing it like this, it’s so contrasting lol

“C-can you turn on voice chat? I think it would be good to do voice chat together…”

I said with a bit of anticipation.

This is gender discrimination
You didn’t do it with men!!!

…

– Ah

– Yes

A chat came up.

And then, I waited.

Not long after, I heard a voice.

– Ah.

“Oh……!”

I exclaimed. Without realizing it.

A w-woman…!

– Can you hear me?

“Yes, yes…!”

Wow, it’s really a woman

It’s fascinating lol
lol Look at her mood going up
I-hyun, you lesb*ian…
But the leader seems like she’d like women too, so it makes sense that she has female fans

I kept choosing and inviting people who claimed to be women after talking with her.

LeeHaReum

ChocoSupport

LovesSeolbing

“Wow…”

Looking at them together, I feel it again… how can even their nicknames be so womanly?

They’re undeniably ‘woman’ nicknames. To the point where you’d think they planned it.

“And… I’ll find one more person.”

I said, closing my eyes and choosing one more.

BecomingIhyunsBabyToDrinkHerMilk

That chat was chosen.

…