Off-Screen Currents

Hugging the two albums to my chest, I blankly stared at the chat window.

People trickled in one by one—soon chat scrolled at high speed.

[▶ Huh? Cam real?]

[▶ What? Right Jangma stream?]

[▶ But why under mask feels super handsome]

“Hellloo~ It’s Jangma.”

Fixed the mask properly, nodded.

Drunk probably—fast chat hard to see.

Ended maxing text size, slumped in chair.

Donations came—mind too foggy to read.

[▶ Jangma hyung drunk?]

[▶ Smaller frame than thought]

[▶ Another black history incoming]

“Bl-black history? No, no!”

Waved one hand, showed albums in arms to cam.

“Today unboxing~ Tran album arrived!”

[▶ lololol booze smell here]

[▶ Old man go bed sleep]

[▶ No Seo Injun photocard cry right?]

Blinked slow, tore album wrap with nail.

Worried scratch cover—moved hands careful.

Didn’t go well—missed several times.

Finally peeled plastic, blankly peered inside.

Dizzy vision—photos inside all shaky.

Fiddled uncomfortable mask, pulled palm-sized photo from album center.

This the photocard probably.

Squinted hard—realized not Seo Injun.

Seo Injun neat impression—this sharper.

Still handsome—mood good.

Held photocard to camera.

“Who’s this card~?”

[▶ Tongue twisted lololol]

[▶ Tran maknae Han Dojin!]

“Han Dooojin? Super handsome…”

[▶ Kid just twenty. Younger than hyung]

“Super mature… Me super tiny…”

[▶ Someone tranquilizer him ㅠㅠㅠ]

[▶ Cute just watch ㅋㅋㅋ]

Nodded slow, pocketed Han Dojin card precious.

Then tore remaining album.

No strength fingers—kept missing.

Annoyed whined—chat said stuff.

Speed made nauseous—didn’t look.

Struggled open wrap, opened album.

Prayed Seo Injun inside—opened center.

But nothing.

Felt wrong—flipped quick from first page.

Still no photocard-like photo.

“What! Give photocard!”

[▶ Huh no card?]

[▶ Defective lololol luck bad lololol]

[▶ Jangma nim exchange service]

[▶ That state exchange possible?]

Stared chat hard—sometimes no card albums apparently.

Unbelievable—rummaged album wild.

No fluttering thing.

Pulled Han Dojin card pocket, hugged precious.

“What this… Only Dojini…”

Today first call Seo Injun—embarrassing mistake, toe smashed door, one album no card.

Trivial—but sudden grievance hit.

Drunk worse probably.

Soon hugging card, crying.

Tears dripped under mask covering only nose.

“Heuung, give Seo Injun!”

[▶ lololololololololol]

[▶ Why bully our Jangma~!]

[▶ Exchange Seo Injun card Han Dojin card]

“No trade! Dojini mine too… Give Seo Injun!”

[▶ lololol this hyung only legends lately]

[▶ Cute ㅠㅠㅠ]

Cried long while, hugged album, ended stream.

Barely woke—sun high.

Passed out desk—blankly saw hugged album slept.

Suddenly yesterday memories flashed.

Startled huge, turned phone—notifications piled insane.

SNS—yesterday drunk clip circulating “Fan World’s Ex-Boyfriend,” “Ex-Boyfriend Master Jangma.”

Hands cheeks, silent scream.

RTs views uncontrollable level.

Even Tran fans mentioned—give Seo Injun card.

Some sold other Tran members me.

First cam stream like this.

Regret late.

At least ended stream slept—relief.

But tomorrow Seo Injun collab.

Lucky? Don’t know, damn.

#Stage 2

For reference, I’m not a criminal.

Did nothing wrong.

But felt guilty.

Should announce right now—tomorrow Seo Injun collab.

Better upload teaser-like video YouTube.

But stand camera to record—words stuck.

Reason one only.

“Ah, why yesterday…?”

Notifications nonstop.

Vibration each time—yesterday vivid.

From now drunk stream—woof woof.

Muttered alone, light slapped cheeks.

Snap out quick, record edit video.

Still uncomfortable mask fixed proper, cleared voice.

Front monitor—prepared short script visible.

Light warmed mouth, pressed camera record.

“Hello everyone! Jangma here.”

Luckily one-take done.

Transferred computer, started edit immediate.

Didn’t notice drunk yesterday—mask on, features quite visible.

Strangers no clue, but know my face—roughly recognize.

Only guild hyung family know face—relieved.

Quick edit finish, uploaded channel immediate.

If good content ideas with Seo Injun—send video comments or SNS, announced too.

Then lunch cup ramen poured water—notifications 50 piled already.

First SNS, checked carefully.

“Wow, lots cheering.”

Yesterday even me hated—kind overlook grateful.

Tran fans only good words.

Read pretty support comments smiling down—one idea caught eye.

「Mouse Jangma holds, keyboard Seo Injun holds play game.」

“…?”

First read confusing—imagined, understood.

One character play—two split mouse keyboard control.

Situation weird—scenes fun probably.

But if Battle Playground shooter—too sorry Seo Injun.

Many eyes—can’t complain—who for content.

Bitter smile, copied notepad first, read comments again.

“Jangma nim face reveal… skip~ Ah, Seo Injun solo part live? This good.”

Reading comments—new ideas kept attaching.

Checked midway—rest brief, opened notepad.

Seo Injun solo part live, Seo Injun alone broadcast 10 min, new song promo, Seo Injun read comments…

All Seo Injun.

Lined up—my selfishness obvious.

Truth, if possible—Seo Injun two hours alone camera fine.

Suddenly embarrassed—kept few, deleted rest.

Ate ramen some, opened SNS—comments piled again.

Top one caught eye perfect.

「Jangma nim! Injun oppa likes horror movies ㅋㅋㅋ Injun oppa play horror game Jangma nim beside commentate how?」

Saw comment, pondered brief.

Seo Injun likes horror—important info.

But I hate horror deadly.

Since kid—even monster jump movie faint scare.

Can’t faint stream—regret, skipped.

“What do. Hmm.”

Read all comments—no fitting idea.

Reread seen—ended sneaky added horror game commentate notepad.

Seo Injun play I just watch beside—okay maybe.

“No way faint.”

Thus three contents decided.

Seo Injun solo part live.

Two one play.

Horror game commentate.

Prepared three brief summarize, input text.

Just send yesterday call number—strangely nervous.

Start “Hello, Jangma here.” too stiff.

But “Me Jangma~” too light.

Alternatives searched—decided polite tone mix emojis appropriate.

Read aloud several times, no typo, sent text.

Sent complete notification—heavy heart lighter.

And 1 minute later reply immediate.

Understood, five letters only.

Grateful checked text busy midst.

Plus Tran official SNS announced too.

Tomorrow evening 8, Seo Injun my collab live.

Below overseas fans incomprehensible mentions—reality hit hard.

“Uuuh, already nervous.”

Stared notepad blinking three dots, long sigh.

Tomorrow not shower—full rainy season.

Must not forget that fact.