Chapter 8 : Aegyo or Humiliation

I’ve lived a life with no connection to ‘aegyo’ (acting cute).

Of course, that was the case after I became a bulky, unsightly creature, but even when I look at pictures of myself when I was seven or five, when I was supposedly cute and adorable, I always had a sullen expression. In my memory, too, I’ve lived without knowing the ‘ae’ of ‘aegyo’ since I was a child.

I have no confidence. I don’t even know how to do it.

But I can’t give up. I can’t stand the humiliation of being labeled a local pretending to be a smurf in this low elo. That would… make me feel a truly terrible sense of defeat.

I could give them my suspended ID or bring it on stream, but the best option would be to cleanly friend request them with a high-ranking ID and talk.

‘Isn’t this kind of inevitable when you’re streaming anyway?’

It’s disgusting to think about acting cute to a
guy.

Let’s think of myself as the protagonist of a yuri anime. I’m a girl, and the other person is also a girl. I mind control myself.

I recall all the yuri animes about middle school and high school girls that I’ve watched…!

Alright. I’ve gained confidence. I think I can do it.

“Deal. Let’s go.”

I immediately logged in with the account and password I received through whisper.

It wasn’t a lie from the viewer, it was really a Diamond 2 account.

-pikapikapika: This
is really crazy ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-JungleIsHell: The first-ever insult proxy stream ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-Willof
: Isn’t this account sharing?

“What account sharing, I’m not going to play a game.”

I opened Notepad, wrote down what I would send when the opponent accepted the friend request, sent the friend request.

And as soon as Draven accepted the friend request, I copied and pasted the contents I had written in order, and then immediately blocked him.

While I was doing all that, the guy couldn’t type anything other than ‘?’.

“Burst damage and then kiting! This is the perfect trading method! Draven will now be crushed by the feeling of defeat that only he doesn’t have a main account and will be shaking for 30 minutes!”

HawaiianPizzaLover: It’s not even your main account, you
ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-pikapikapika: This is really dizzying ᄏᄏᄏ

LastLightOfNation: Chat trading genius Ruffian! Chat trading genius Ruffian! Chat trading genius Ruffian! Chat trading genius Ruffian! Chat trading genius Ruffian! Chat trading genius Ruffian!

-WhyNot?: Your philosophy on life is truly amazing, Teacher.

-Jerobi: Aegyo

And the time to pay the price has come.

“What happens if I declare a no-show?”

-Jerobi: What do you mean what happens, it’s the abyss

-Willof
: The

-MorningRice: Abyss

-JungleIsHell: The

-Economics101: Abyss

-pikapikapika: Abyss

LastLightOfNation: Abyss

An unprecedented group ‘abyss’ chant started.

“Ah, I’ll do it, calm down.”

But how do I do it?

As I was struggling, a mysterious video donation came in.

[Jerobi donated a whopping 5,000 won!]

[YouTube Video]

“Huh? Thank you for the 5,000 won donation. But how do I play this?”

I learned it a long time ago, but I’ve never received a video donation, so I forgot how to play it.

Still, it wasn’t that difficult, so after struggling for a few tens of seconds, I managed to play it somehow.

The video was about a vtuber like me, who doesn’t turn on the cam, doing aegyo with her voice.

“……You want me to do this?”

-Jerobi: Of course

“……You guys watch this stuff? It’s a little disgust, no. It’s a little unfamiliar.”

Judging by the way they chat and the fact that they watch my stream without saying anything, I thought they were all legendary, hardcore
, but it seems like they were
who gathered because they also watch vtubers.

-pikapikapika: Look at her genuine disgust ᄏᄏᄏ

Economics101: It’s a reward
Please disgust me more

LastLightOfNation: Controversy) Vtuber’s ‘aegyo is disgusting’ remark

-Jerobi: Now you have to do that disgusting thing ᄏᄏ

“Ugh, ew.”

-JungleIsHell: She’s good at
jokes, but she’s startled by aegyo ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ -Jerobi: When did she make
jokes?

-JungleIsHell: Watch yesterday’s VOD, she kept doing it when a donation popped up ᄏᄏᄏᄏ

Ah, I can’t see the chat properly.

I played the video I received as a donation and wrote it down in Notepad.

“Ugh, ugh, ugh!”

-pikapikapika: Moaning service too ᄏᄏᄏ

-Economics101:
My face was burning with embarrassment. I don’t have a mirror, but I’m sure it’s very red.

“Can… can you pat me?”

When was the last time I was patted? It must have been at least 20 years ago. Just imagining it made me feel like my head was going to explode.

“No……? Then hug me.”

When was the last time I hugged someone? This was also so long ago that I can’t remember, and hugging someone seems like something that could never happen to me.

“That too? Then kiss me.”

I was half out of my mind at this point.

“……That too? Do it! Do it! Ch, cough! cough! cough!”

I was startled by my own disgustingness and started coughing from choking. I felt like I did something I shouldn’t have, and I wanted to hide in a mouse hole somewhere.

-pikapikapika: A streamer who chokes while doing aegyo ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-Economics101: I just clipped it

-Willof
: Why is she so good at changing her voice in the middle of that ᄏᄏᄏᄏ Is she a voice actor?

LastLightOfNation: This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation! This is the nation!

MorningRice: Cute

-Jerobi: Good

“Ugh, hng, cough, heugh, screech!”

-WhyNot?: If you have phlegm, don’t hold it in, spit it out, Teacher.

-Willof
: Cute sounds followed by
sounds ᄏᄏᄏ

-pikapikapika: A streamer whose body rejects aegyo ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-Economics101: Phlegm is also a reward
Smoking unnie

“I don’t smoke.
. I feel like I’m going to die of embarrassment.”

I’m never doing aegyo again. I think I have goosebumps all over my body. হুহ.

But my ordeal didn’t end there.

[Jerobi donated a whopping 100,000 won!]

Do ‘that reaction’

“Hieeek? No, 100,000? Really? You’re not going to ask for a refund or anything, right?”

-WhyNot?: Seeing you always worry about getting fooled, I learn another lesson about the attitude towards life.

-pikapikapika: 24 ccc

Economics101: Is it coming? Is that reaction coming?

The only donation reaction I’ve done is that. Back then, I was high on the sudden 50x increase in viewers and my first donation, so I didn’t think much of it.

But now that I’m told to do it, it’s incredibly embarrassing.

Moreover, I’ve already exhausted all my mental energy with the aegyo just now!

-Jerobi: When are you doing the reaction? Are you not doing it?

“No, I’ll do it. I will.”

But it was too much money to refuse. How can I resist 100,000 won. It’s more than half a day’s wage for manual labor!

“……Te, ten thousand won is, too, too big, right? Th, there’s no way that can go in, right? Huh?”

-Willof
: If it doesn’t go in, spit it out ᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-Economics101: Has the reaction started?

JungleIsHell: The voice sounds kind of
, so it must have started

-Economics101:
“No…… don’t force it in…………. It’s too big, it won’t go in, okay?”

LastLightOfNation: It’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming, it’s coming

-JungleIsHell: Dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy

Economics101: 퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄퍄

HawaiianPizzaLover: Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe! Unnie, my
is weird! Hehe!

-CleanRamen: Why is this stream so
?

“Heugh! Uheung! Haaeugh! It’s too big, it won’t go iiiiiin!”

-pikapikapika: Crazy
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-CleanRamen: It’s going to get suspended soon ᄏᄏ

-Willof
: It’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoInIt’sTooBigItWontGoIn

-Jerobi: Why is it so realistic ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

-JungleIsHell: Is she really putting something in?

“Te, ten thousand won, it’s all in? Hehe! I came!”

I was actually feeling something similar to an orgasm.

I’m sitting in the corner of my room, babbling into a headset, and 100,000 won just fell into my lap? How can I not like it! In terms of labor intensity, I’d be grateful for even 10,000 won, let alone 100,000.

Emotional labor? Shame? I threw those away a long time ago. It was too exhausting to live while keeping the components of a human being. I threw them away somewhere far away a long time ago.

This is capitalism!

LastLightOfNation: The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! The one and only god of vtubers, Ruffian! -Willof
: The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! The Faceless King! -Economics101: This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming! This is streaming!

-Jerobi: Nice

“I like making money too. Hehe. Do. Na. tion. Good. Jerobi-nim, let’s be friends.”

-WhyNot?: I respect your dedication to customer management, Teacher.

-Willof
: Do you want to be secret friends with me?

MorningRice: No! Don’t take her away! No! Don’t take her away! No! Don’t take her away! No! Don’t take her away! No! Don’t take her away!

-Economics101: Will love be lost to capital once again? Will love be lost to capital once again? Will love be lost to capital once again? Will love be lost to capital once again?

-JungleIsHell: Ah, if you’re jealous, take out a loan and donate too ᄏᄏᄏ

“You know it’s a big deal if this gets exposed, right? Never tell anyone, and just keep it to yourselves.”

I thought I might have gone too far, so I gave that warning, but it seems the warning was useless. Or maybe it backfired.

The next day, despite being a nobody, I was suspended for three days, like a lie.