Don’t Go… Or I Won’t Be Able to Stop

The person who had proposed the exhibition had said so as well, and Haeyoon himself had started it lightly at first, as a way to show his gratitude to those who had enjoyed his paintings.

He thought it would be nice if the visitors could enjoy it as a kind of event.

But as time passed, he grew greedier.

He wanted to do better.

It wasn’t a desire for critical acclaim or to raise his profile.

He just didn’t want to disappoint the people who came to see his paintings.

He wanted them to feel that they had made a good decision coming to see his exhibition.

He hoped the audience would leave thinking they would like to come again if they had the chance.

If they could later leave a comment saying they had seen artist Seohae’s paintings in person and they were good, that would be really wonderful.

Forgetting to eat and sleep, immersing himself in his work—it was all because of that desire.

“But still… I want to do well.”

Haeyoon spoke, putting that feeling into words.

“I hope the exhibition becomes a place where the visitors can gain even a small sense of inspiration.”

And Baek Jeongha witnessed Seo Haeyoon’s dream right beside him.

The vivid colors of Haeyoon’s feelings felt as clear as if they were his own.

Perhaps because Seo Haeyoon was an artist who painted, Jeongha often saw a festival of colors he had never seen before in the person of Seo Haeyoon.

To Jeongha, he was himself a work of art, a grand masterpiece.

“It will definitely be like that.”

Jeongha answered as if entranced.

It wasn’t an answer he had thought out with his head.

Haeyoon turned his head to look at Jeongha.

Seeing his own reflection in Haeyoon’s sparkling eyes looking as beautiful as a painting, Jeongha wanted to be preserved in Seo Haeyoon’s world forever.

“I’ve seen it, haven’t I?”

“Ah…….”

“Even someone like me, who knows nothing about art, has no understanding of painting, and even has a cold, dirty personality—even he was shaken up like that… there’s no way other people’s hearts won’t be moved.

Absolutely.”

After seeing the main piece of the exhibition, Jeongha had often imagined the moment when others would see this painting.

It would be an event.

Even if it wasn’t an event that would shake the entire universe or completely change the world, it was clear that it would be a shock that would at least thoroughly stir up the worlds of those who saw the painting in person.

Jeongha was truly looking forward to that moment.

It was strange to him that he was so eagerly anticipating a moment that would be someone else’s achievement, not his own.

“Jeongha.”

Then, Haeyoon spoke.

His voice was such that it instantly changed the atmosphere around them.

Jeongha couldn’t tell if it was actually Haeyoon’s voice, or if he was so intoxicated by his own emotions that he perceived it differently.

Baek Jeongha was that deeply absorbed in Seo Haeyoon.

“That… was all thanks to you.”

But no one would be able to laugh at Baek Jeongha’s absorption.

Jeongha thought so.

“If it weren’t for you, I absolutely… absolutely would not have been able to overcome my wounds and pick up my brush again in such a short time.”

With such a person right before his eyes, with someone who never speaks insincerely saying this to him, how could anyone not fall for him?

“Ha… I’m really losing my mind.”

In the end, it was Baek Jeongha who raised the white flag first.

He tried his best to endure, but it was a failure.

It was Seo Haeyoon’s fault.

The problem was Haeyoon, who kept pushing someone who was barely holding on towards the edge of a cliff.

So Jeongha decided to honestly grumble to Haeyoon, who was blinking with a puzzled face.

“You probably don’t know, hyung….”

“……?”

“I’m releasing a ton of pheromones right now.”

In truth, from the moment he entered this house, Jeongha had lost control of his pheromones.

He had tried his best to control them, but it wasn’t working.

The smell of paint lingering in his nose was also a problem, and the defenselessly pretty Seo Haeyoon was an even bigger problem.

Yet, Jeongha had still tried desperately.

He tried so hard to act normal, not wanting to push Haeyoon further, not wanting to add to his worries when he had something important coming up.

So Seo Haeyoon shouldn’t act like this in front of Baek Jeongha.

He shouldn’t be this pretty and adorable, and he shouldn’t say things like ‘I was able to paint again thanks to you.’

“If I stay here any longer… I feel like I… won’t be able to hold back anymore.”

Now, he had reached his limit.

Not only were Jeongha’s pheromones already clinging to Haeyoon’s body, but they were also filling this space.

If a dynamic were to enter this place now, whether Alpha or Omega, they wouldn’t be able to breathe properly.

His lower abdomen had been aching for a while, and his instincts were screaming at him to bind Seo Haeyoon and devour him immediately.

Jeongha, running a hand through his hair like an anxious person, continued.

“I know.

If I just back off here, I’ll look like a really gentlemanly person.

But I was never really that gentlemanly to begin with, so, well.”

Looking into his eyes, Jeongha smiled.

In that moment, Haeyoon felt as if a huge flame was about to engulf him.

Baek Jeongha wasn’t doing anything, and he himself, a Beta, couldn’t even feel the pheromones he was supposedly releasing, yet he felt surrounded by a house-sized blaze.

Jeongha asked.

“Do you want me to go?”

“…….”

“If you tell me to go, I’ll leave without a word.

And when I get home, I’ll contact you to say I arrived safely, and tomorrow I’ll come to the studio to see your face.

As if nothing happened.”

His tone was so confident it seemed almost arrogant.

As if even if Haeyoon told him to leave today, he wouldn’t be at all affected.

As if it didn’t matter what answer he gave, as if he wasn’t nervous at all.

But there was one thing Baek Jeongha overlooked.

The intimacy between Baek Jeongha and Seo Haeyoon wasn’t a one-sided feeling.

Even if it wasn’t defined as anything, even if they hadn’t put a name to their feelings, Haeyoon also cherished Jeongha deep in his heart.

He felt close to him.

Jeongha was already important enough to Haeyoon that, knowing he would surely hurt if he lost him, he would rather not have him at all than lose him.

Just as Jeongha could notice Haeyoon’s subtle changes in expression, Haeyoon could also see the true feelings behind Jeongha’s act, put on to not burden him.

Pretending it was no big deal, pretending not to be nervous, but his earnest desire, his wish not to be rejected, was all visible to Haeyoon.

Taking a short deep breath, Haeyoon slowly spoke.

“Don’t go.”

His voice was firm in a way Baek Jeongha couldn’t have imagined.

Surprised by this unexpected reaction, Jeongha’s mouth fell slightly open.

Finding his face cute, Haeyoon continued.

“I don’t want you to go.”

“Now… that means….”

“I know very well what I’m saying, Jeongha.

What I mean is… I’m going to use you right now.”

At the end of his words, Haeyoon smiled.

In that moment, Jeongha recalled what he had said to Haeyoon, who had been afraid of the end of their relationship.

_’What I mean is… I’m just asking you to let me stay by your side. Just take what you need and use me. When you don’t need me anymore, you can throw me away.’*

So how could anyone beat Seo Haeyoon?

How could anyone hold someone so strong and solid, yet also soft and lovable, in their heart and not act on it?

Unable to do anything about his helplessly deepening feelings, Baek Jeongha spoke.

“Yeah.

Okay.

I’ll gladly be used by you all night.”

Soon, their breaths intertwined hotly.

****

Holding Haeyoon in his arms, sucking on his tongue slowly and persistently as he moved to the bedroom, Jeongha laid Haeyoon on the bed as if placing a sacred treasure.

Then, he removed Haeyoon’s clothes one by one and leisurely admired the sight.

During their last s*x, he had been half out of his mind, so he hadn’t been able to take in Haeyoon’s appearance carefully.

He hadn’t mentioned it, but Jeongha had regretted that for a long time.

“Stop looking….”

Now the only one naked, Haeyoon turned his head away from Jeongha’s gaze, which was persistently scanning every corner of his body, and muttered.

Jeongha smiled lightly, took off his own shirt, pressed his body against him, and buried his lips in Haeyoon’s ear.

“It tickles…. Uhn….”

As Jeongha licked and rubbed inside Haeyoon’s ear with the tip of his tongue, Haeyoon’s shoulders flinched slightly.

The wet, sticky sensation was transmitted so vividly that a shiver ran down his spine.

He had never had his ear canal stimulated before, and the unfamiliar pleasure made his lower abdomen tingle even more.

“You seem to feel good here.”

Feeling Haeyoon’s penis gradually hardening, Jeongha grinned, still keeping his lips on his ear.

Embarrassed, Haeyoon bit his lip.

He wanted to argue, but honestly, he was feeling it too much, so he had nothing to say.

“Cute.”

Muttering in a voice full of laughter, Jeongha grabbed Haeyoon’s chest fully with his hand, kissed along his jawline, and then lightly bit above his collarbone.

“Hnn….”

“Hyung, I really like how sensitive you are.

It’s really sexy.”

Jeongha whispered, sucking and licking around Haeyoon’s neck and collarbone as if intentionally trying to leave marks.

His large hands roughly kneaded Haeyoon’s chest.

Each time, he could feel Haeyoon’s pink nipples stiffen.

“Ugh…! Don’t bite m… ahk…!”

Haeyoon helplessly crumbled under Jeongha’s foreplay.

As he said, even Haeyoon himself found his own body, reacting this sensitively to another’s touch, unfamiliar.

Every time Jeongha’s lips and fingers brushed against his skin, his hips would arch involuntarily.

As if begging for what came next.