Chapter 9: It’s all because of this disease

Hidden beneath the blanket, consumed by shame and humiliation, Si Eun suddenly yanked the covers away.

My naked body was exposed, and Si Eun leaned in, whispering,

“Yun Ha, just one more time…”

Si Eun gazed at me with burning desire, but I pushed her away, retorting,

“No way. It’s almost dinner. And I don’t think it’s good for family members to do things like this.”

“Oh yeah?

Is that why you were clinging to me and moaning like crazy just now?”

With those words, Si Eun flashed me a teasing smile.

My face flushed even redder, and I threw a pillow at her, yelling,

“Sh-shut up…!”

Si Eun picked up the pillow and teased,

“Really?

But judging by your reaction, it seems like it’s true, huh?”

“….Shut it.”

Then, Si Eun approached me with an even more irritating smile.

“So, now that we’ve done that, you can call me Unni, right?”

“No, I won’t.

Besides, it was pretty much all your fault, wasn’t it?”

“Yun Ha, are you seriously going to be like this?

You enjoyed everything and now you’re blaming me?”

Si Eun said, taking on an accusatory tone and pushing the blame onto me.

Si Eun was using rather forced arguments to manipulate me into calling her Unni.

But I wouldn’t fall for her tricks.

“No, I will never call you Unni.

Never.”

At that, Si Eun glared at me and said,

“Yun Ha, do you still think you’re a man?

No, you now have a woman’s body, and you have to live as a woman from now on.

If you act like a man with that body, you’ll only be hurting yourself.

I’m just trying to correct you and help you live as a woman.”

“……”

“So, huh?

Let’s call me Unni, okay?”

I hated it.

I hated it so much.

I… I was born a man… But because of this damn disease… Because of this f*cking disease… I became a woman… If it wasn’t for this goddamn disease… My life wouldn’t have turned out like this after getting this disease.

Yeah, Si Eun didn’t do anything wrong, after all.

In the end, it was all because of this godforsaken TS disease.

This disease ruined my gender identity, and just ruined my whole life.

Yeah, it’s all because of this disease.

‘It’s all because of this disease.

It’s all because of this disease.

It’s all because of this disease.

Before I knew it, I was hyperventilating.

Si Eun called out to me several times, raising her voice each time, but when I didn’t respond, Si Eun slapped me across the face to calm me down.

“Yun Ha, what’s wrong?

Why are you suddenly breathing like that…”

I clutched my head and said,

“It’s all because of this disease… If it wasn’t for this disease…”

Then, Si Eun put her hands on both of my shoulders and looked me straight in the eye, saying,

“Yun Ha, I know it’s because of this disease.

But your life hasn’t been ruined yet, right?

So, listen to me and just live as I tell you.

Then, at least your life won’t be ruined.

It might even get better.”

At those words, I looked at Si Eun with haggard eyes and asked,

“R-really…?”

“Yeah.

Really.

So, let’s listen to Unni, okay?”